the story

have more often than not, wanted to know how far one can go with belief in life. I mean if you really believe, you've got to have this passion that can make you tell the story every time.

At its very worst, It requires resilience and heart and self-belief(providence and purpose) even after it's been knocked out of you. It's a certain kind of a test.

And the story is just getting along and you've got to keep the passion alive. Most of all you've got to keep that love for what you are creating alive. And it's hard and the training alone will kill you.

And it tough to keep the passion alive for the love of the game. I mean if you don't love what you are doing, I doubt you could tell the story.

And that's before people start giving you a dig. and it does take awhile for the story to makes sense. But you've got to keep telling the story and keep it alive.
If ever, you do have your soul torn, you kind of adopt that kind of conflict, it's difficult to quit.

the real icing on the cake is I suppose: to have a highly developed capacity for self-delusion, to believe.

love, longing and belonging

my parents are settled in a sleepy town in Kerala, work keeps taking me around, was raised in Bombay, post graduate studies at Pune, have been to the east and the west and I just can't say where I like to be at the end of the day.
At some level I don't feel any solitude, if people ever do choose that feeling to live or call a place home.

I've managed to create a sense of banishment in so many different areas of my life.
That its hard to say where I really belong.

that moment

You can be ignorant about this for a long time, however there comes a a moment in life when everybody does ask themselves this:

'Is it really seemly for me to still be doing this?'

(on still watching cartoons and playing videogames...)

the impression

Every once in a while we get to work with people who perhaps have not
quiet impressed us or have been impressed with.

When we're working with such people they can put us on the same level, and that
just makes our job a little easier.

And it creates quiet an impression about such people.

on the flip side, I have had the opportunity to work with people I would have
given more of myself to work with but you just aren't able to level with them.
And that quiet changes that first impression.

perhaps, the irony of relationships or expectations!
so really, what does make us level with a person.
ah, cést la vie.